just one more breath, i beg you please.
just one more step, my knees are weak.
my heart is sturdy, but it needs you to survive.
my heart is sturdy, but it needs you.


breathe, don't you want to breathe?
i know that you are strong enough to handle what i need.
my capillaries scream ; there's nothing left to feed on.
my body needs a reason to cross that line.
will you carry me there once more?


once more.

` sue -
10th december 1985
blue-blooded sagittarian



profiles - fridae ; friendster



peektures - flickr ; ancients

i'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you.
and i need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new.
//
indelibly inked at 9:00 PM



and i wonder.

if everything could ever feel this real forever, if anything could ever be this good again.
the only thing i'll ever ask of you, you gotta promise not to stop when i say when.

breathe out, so i can breathe you in.
//
indelibly inked at 4:00 PM



use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill.
and i know i'll be okay, though my skies are turning grey.

these tears are turning me to rust.
//
indelibly inked at 12:53 AM



meine liebe:

we've been together since way back when.
and sometimes, i never want to see you again.
but i want you to know, after all these years,
that you're still the one i want whispering in my ears.

you're still the one i like to talk to in bed, still the one that turns my head.
you're still the one that makes me laugh, still the one that's my better half.
you're still the one that makes me strong, still the one i wanna take along.
you're still the one that i love to touch, still the one and i can't get enough.
you're still the one who can scratch my itch, still the one and i wouldn't switch.
you're still the one that makes me shout, still the one that i dream about.

but most importantly, you're still the one i'm in love with.

HAPPY 24TH, BABY! =)
//
indelibly inked at 9:01 PM



the following post is solely dedicated to my F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

dear crystal, esther, kie, claire and zsa:
what you did last night was a testament of our friendship.
despite the fact that i messed up your surprise by not being there,
i was damn close to tears when i heard the news from my colleagues!
hence, the early morning emotionally charged text y'all received. hurhur.

our tightness is much appreciated and absolutely adored.
tell me how to cope if i didnt have my sampan "wildthangs" quartet!

I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS, LAH! =)

and now... let's go prawning, indulge in tom yum and peer at babies through the window!
//
indelibly inked at 10:26 PM



baye:

i can't pretend these tears aren't overflowing steadily.
i can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me.
but i will stand and say goodbye for you'll never be mine,
until you know the way it feels to fly.

if you should return to me, we truly were meant to be.
and i feel your heart will lead you back to me when you're ready to land.

so, until then.
//
indelibly inked at 2:02 AM



I ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY LOVE MY SAMPAN QUARTET! =)

life, as i never knew it, is a hoot and i'm loving it.
//
indelibly inked at 3:56 PM



baby, i dont know why you're treating me so bad.
you said you love me, no one above me and i was all you had.
and though my heart is beating for you, i cant stop crying.
i dont know how i allow you to treat me this way and still i stay.

when i get the strength to leave you, always tell me that you need me.
and i'm weak because i believe you and i'm mad because i love you.
so i stop and think that maybe, you can learn to appreciate me.
then it all remains the same that you ain't never gonna change.

this something always holds me back.
//
indelibly inked at 9:41 PM



HAPPY NURSES' DAY!
especially to my level 4 angels, all of whom i love dearly.
and to my dear CASSVDY, whom are scattered all over the island.
and to those who've been serving and to those who are gonna serve.

i'm finally gonna catch harry potter!
i'm not slow, i just waited for the hype to die down.
now, i can happily make my way down to cine with sissy and watch it. yay!

and to that wannabe:
watch your mouth, motherfucker.
you so do not wanna mess with me.
if you ever, ever, refer to yourself as lois' girlfriend again,
i swear i'll have your beating heart in my hands in two ticks.

oh... and i love you, baye. -insert innocently sweet smile-
//
indelibly inked at 1:03 PM



i cant believe i woke up 2 hours ago.
and i'm not even working the night shift!
but i did manage to re-start my social life, just a lil'.

met up with wayne after work yesterday.
(i HATE waiting and she was an hour late. reason, valid.)
anyhoos, i think i dragged her one too many times across town.
THINK OF IT AS REVENGE PUNISHMENT, YO! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!

i'm thankful for being a NUM member.
my mini-spree cost me a good fraction of my salary,
and a lesson to note that wayne's a fucking evil shopping kaki!

but i like what i bought. grins.

anyhoos... i made new friends yesterday.
okay, made one new friend and re-made another.
we made our way down to MoS after midnight. how randomly impromptu!
i was fucking VIP, can?! i happily skipped in with a simple wave of my hand.
needless to say, we had one fucking hellva time. and now, i sound like a frog.

i'd put a transvie to shame.
//
indelibly inked at 5:04 PM



always weigh what i've lost against what i left.
so, progress report: i am missing you to death.
//
indelibly inked at 10:13 PM



the irony of it.

my ex still uses the lil' presents i gave her.
she uses them everyday and wears them, proud.

my girlfriend, on the other hand, chucks them away.
she has them kept in their boxes, in a drawer or just to collect dust.

oh, the irony of it all.
oh, the excruciating irony of it all.
//
indelibly inked at 12:48 PM



you know i love you still.
i love you with all my hate.
//
indelibly inked at 11:31 PM



devoid of all emotion.
the sun burnt out tonight.

my heart is officially dead.
//
indelibly inked at 6:34 PM



another 18 days more.
I MISS YOU, MOMMY! =(
i hope you read this and feel super guilty about leaving me.
MILKA, RITTER SPORT AND KINDER RIEGAL, YOU HEAR?!

anyhoos, i'm finally done with my night shift.
now to enjoy the fruits of my labour. ahahahaha!
then again, if only there were people to enjoy it with.
(FEEL EXTREME GUILT, JOYCE CHUA! pffft!)

what am i to do with a week off?
dad suddenly suggested going to genting (?!).
please, the last thing i'd wanna do is go to damn malay-fucking-sia.

(ahahaha! that's like a pun, lah. how random and unintended!)

i'm tryna make the effort to spend time with baye,
especially since i've got all the time in the world right now.
but it's beginning to exhaust me because there's never results.

all the above is why i seek solace in elson.
only he has the ability to make me forget.
//
indelibly inked at 10:03 PM

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